Just so you won't think I jumped off the deck to my death into the lilac bush, here I am! Thanks for the support, too. Today was much, much better than yesterday, which I will take. Of course, Alex isn't able to leave H's sight. Not at all. Even leaving the room to get a Q-tip is not allowed.
I'm trying to remember to take it a moment at a time, which sounds easier than it actually is. It's hard not to look at the road ahead and see hours and weeks and months of this. But when I am objective, I see the growth in all of us. I also know that I am one of the grown-ups here, and I have more awareness of what has happened and what will happen. H has no idea that when Alex leaves he'll come back again. Why should he? It's just going to take a lot of repetition of leavings and returns, a lot of comforting (when he allows it), and many trips to the beach. The great healer.
Phew. Thank heavens for American Idol, that's all I can say! I need a dose of fake reality now and then.
Great pictures!
Posted by: Mayhem | May 23, 2007 at 10:39 PM
Oh, yes! Great photos!!
Before you know it, you'll be having mostly better days. Then you'll wonder what in the world you ever did before you found each other.
Posted by: dawn | May 25, 2007 at 05:53 AM
Oh Erin,
I am so sorry that these are trying times for you and the boys. And I am so glad that you had a better day. Hopefully the good days will start to outnumber the bad. I can't even imagine how confusing and hard this time is for all of you.
We'll be there soon enough and I'll be leaning on your for advice. By that time, I'm sure you'll be a wealth of knowledge and the boyls will have it all figured out. That you guys love them and your not going anywhere.
Hang in there! The boys are just adorable. I'm also sorry that American Idol is over. Mayeb you should take up Project Runway when it comes on. My fave.
Take care,
Jamie
Posted by: fully operational battle station | May 25, 2007 at 10:32 PM