sigh

I had a slight drop in mood just now.  A tiny disappointment that made me realize how hard I'm finding the wait to travel to meet the boys.  One of the parents who traveled recently to Ethiopia to pick up her daughter very generously carried a care package for them.  She was able to give it to the nannies, but the boys were not there.  Her daughter is an infant and is housed in another building, so she wasn't able to get back to see them during her stay. 

So no pictures or small anecdote.  I know, as soon as we get there and meet them, all of these anxieties and desires will melt away.  Most likely to be replaced by new ones!  But I still feel a wee bit sad. 

Good news of the day:  Our tenants are moving out of the house Saturday, so we can start moving in next week!  It will be more space for us and the boys and Chauncey and all of our stuff.  As soon as I know they are gone I will begin taping out our new bedroom to repaint it in a color called "zenful."  No, I did not choose it for its name!  I really like the color!  Maybe I'll show you when I get it done.  I finished one of the boy's bird blankets, to begin another this weekend, too.  They are easy, just the binding is time-consuming.  I'll post pics of that, too.

Another parent who is picking up her daughter next week will be taking photos for us.  Her daugher is 5, so she will be in the same area as our guys.  More opportunity to take a picture.  I hope!

Comments

[Jamie]

I'm sorry to hear that. Those little bits of info and pics are all we have to hold on to. I can definitely understand your disappointment. I hope the fam going next week can get some goodies for you to hold on to.

Painting. Just reading the word made me shudder. We just finished our kitchen. Take a look!

Jamie

[fully operational battle station]

Hi Erin,

Me again. The color was called Terracotta Pot at Home Depot. I sat there forever with the sales girls in the paint department trying to decide if it was red or orange. We decided it was more of a rust. I absolutely love it and I think it would look simply divine on cabinets too.

Thanks for the comment over at my place and thanks for adding me as a link on your sidebar! What a good bloggy friend you are.

Jamie

[erinberry]

I know the feeling of waiting for new pictures - Each day feels like an eternity!

Looking forward to seeing pics of how you decorate the boys' room/rooms.

[Amanda/MayhemMama]

You know, I've always wondered about the whole "all your pain and anxiety will melt away when you hold your child" theory...

That wasn't the way it went for me, anyway.

Yes, the old anxieties took a back seat to new anxieties. (Great...) But I still remember pretty darn clearly how hard waiting was. (Not minimizing the experience of my kids or their first moms, just sharing my own experience since I don't know theirs.)

I've never felt like I truly couldn't imagine my life without the boys, and I've never felt like they have always been with me. (You know how some adoptive parents say, "It feels like my child has always been with me!" even though they met when the child was five years old, or six months old, or whatever.) For a little while, I thought maybe I didn't love my son as much as I should, because it didn't feel like he had always been mine from the moment I held him.

Anyway, this is becoming a long comment on what was just a little phrase in your post. Your anxieties and desires might melt away... Then again, they might not. (For example, you might still be disappointed that you didn't get more pictures during the wait.) Either way, you will love your boys like crazy and be a great mom!